sadness of florida

It may be the movie I just got back from, but all of my feelings on Florida have kind of cultivated and I've come to a conclusion. Florida makes me sad. It could also be that tomorrow, I stop at Grammy's gravesite in Bushnell. I have a lot to say, and it all seems to have been building up in the last 4 days especially. Tomorrow will be a trying day.. but I will persevere.

If I've learned anything in the last week, the last 6 months, the last two and a half years, it is that you only have the moment, and to live for anything but that isn't truly living. Thinking of all that you've had and lost is alright, as long as it can help move you forward in your own life rather than letting it hinge you and keep you stuck in the past.

I love you all and am thankful everyday for each and every one of you in my life making it worth each day. My Grammy and I will have a chat.. well, I'll mostly talk, and cry, and I'll tell her how much I miss her every day, how much mom and Amanda and Hayley and Grandpa misses her, and how much we all love her very very much. Such a loss to the world, my world, but all we can do is bring her with us in everything that we do. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. <3 I miss you every day and I think of you when the sun shines.

The last week has been tough.. but part three of the trip continues probably an hour after I leave the cemetery. Savannah adventure, Maryland, and then back to Philadelphia.. and then back to Maryland to start my new adventure.

<3